FEAR. It can put you on your knees and keep you there if you allow it. FEAR affects all of us in different ways and at different times but what happens when FEAR is impacting on your health and fitness.
But What happens when fear is keeping you awake at not. I’m categorising this fear along with anxiety as I feel both rolled very much into one for me but i am in no way making any medical statements or advice and advise you to seek professional/medical help if concerned or effected by any of the following 🙃
Not many people would have guessed it or noticed it but for a good bit of the initial start up in Mohill and for many months I struggled very badly with what I can only explain as mini panic attacks and anxieties that would hit me many times throughout the day.
Only a few close to me knew about. I’m sharing this story in the hope that it might hit home or is relevant to someone and possibly show that no matter the fear or anxiety there can be light at the end of the tunnel, pun not intended 🙃 I don’t think there’s a quick fix, some peoples anxieties/fear are worse than others, some can deal with them better than others, some suffer hourly, some weekly some just on certain events or situations but everyone is different and I’m a firm believer that a lot of quick fixes are given in the form of prescriptions and I think that just masked the problems. If tablets help you then use them in responsible Manner a concern for me is that a lot of these “prescribed” solutions should only be used short time but many end up a life time on them.
My fear came about not long after getting back to exercise after my sister died suddenly and quite unexpectedly. This is no different to anyone else dealing with grief process but my fear was my heart and letting myself break into a sweat and for a long time the minute that happened i went walking the room or took a break. I was terrified of pushing myself, I was terrified that I wasn’t able to do the things I had previously done without thinking about. But it wasn’t just workouts that struggled, it was sleepless nights, panics driving the car and imparticular when driving to work.
I had been to Dr Dohill a few times with pains and discomfort around my chest long before Suzy died. Ecgs and tests and it was put down as muscular pain and suggested that food could be causing digestive pains.
But after Suzy’s death I was more concerned and maybe aware about my pains and they felt like they were getting worse. I pushed myself through October & November of 2017 but suffered many mini anxiety attacks particularly when driving to class and just before sleep. So much so I was Many a night minutes away from calling an ambulance or heading for a&e but eventually I’d get to sleep or convince myself I’d gotten through previous nights.
Twice previously before any fitness stuff I had to call an ambulance for the pains and always got the all clear.
February 2018 with the fear getting at me nearly every day and night I went about going private in James for stress & echo tests which all came back clear. However I still was fearful. I still was afraid once I started working very hard. It was affecting my performance and In turn I felt would effect my classes. I pushed on but held back from 100% and if honest I went months cruising along at 70/80% effort not out of laziness but out of fear, I’d feel my heart race and stop, I’d make excuses to myself to swap from taking part in workout to coaching it all, I’d not exercise if I had these pains. I’ve gradually worked on setting my self goals to get through these anxieties and fears, I know a lot of the pains are down to diet choices and gradually I worked towards being stricter with diet and to push myself in workouts from April/May last year,
the Burpees Challenge scared the life out of me. It went great and I worked through many things but along cane the burpee challenge, 1000 Burpees in one go 😮
I was terrified the night before and that day weather or not I could do it, weather or not I’d quit at the first fear, and weather or not the ticker was strong enough. I got through it with the support of martina and few others who noticed something was up in the lead up.
Ive had ups and downs since but overall I’ve gotten myself through it and there’s not many sleepless nights or any panic attacks.
I’ve followed on with more hospitable test and each one has brought positive results. A combination of recognising there was a problem, working towards solutions, being consistent in implementing the changes, pushing myself to face the fears, and with support from martina and friends, and the reassurances from hospital tests I think I’ve finally gotten past the worse of it.
FEAR sometime consumes all about us. For many we are great at hiding these fears from others, pretending to by “grand”. But I can honestly say that with the support and reassurances from Martina and seeking professional help from dr and hospitals to investigate my concerns I would probably be still in total fear and suffering daily anxiety/pain attacks.
The knock on effect that my fear cause was not exercising, for the mental benefits alone I can not agree more highly of the proven scientific results that show regular exercise helps with mental health, mood, anxiety, stress, and when you quit regular exercise the knock on effects is not only physical but the mental knock on effect worsens those fears, anxiety, depression, stress etc. I feel the support, friendliness, openness and welcoming group at FitKicks can help you in a non invasive, non judgmental and supportive arena, you don’t need to sign and dance about it, you don’t need to mention it at all but simple by coming along to classes, raising your heart rate, gettin a sweat on with a fun, down to earth group of people can drastically improve not only your physical fitness but also you mental health. We are all great at puttin on a mask to others, we answer “grand” to everything. But In reality we all aren’t grand, we all have stuff going on. But whatever has been throwin at us before we are all still standing, stronger than we were back then.
You are stronger than you realise,
You are braver than you thought,
And you will get through what ever it is that faces you.
Believe in yourself,
believe that there will be sunshine at the end of the road and that life can be as good as you are willing to let it be.
The dark clouds may seem like they are down forever but reaching out for help will greatly improve your successful attempt at working towards. A simple chat can quickly help and clear the air. The process might take weeks, months, years but through positive assement, positive thoughts and positive actions a positive results cam come to overcome those fears and anxities.
This is just my story and not ment as reference or a how to. its my experience and yours could be totally diffenent and complex. If anyone at anytime needs to chat feel free to drop me a message 0838029692